days gone by ....

It seems that each day that I run and do my Jillian Michaels video, I must be getting smaller and smaller ... then I'll randomly weight myself only to find that ... indeed ... I have gained weight or stayed the same. What is going on here? I do realize that muscle weighs more than fat, but I have been exercising my butt off ... although, not literally, I guess. Is breastfeeding holding me back? So many women drop weight so easily during breastfeeding. It's like they do nothing and lose tons of weight. Lo, I am not that kind of woman. I feel as though I am slowly gaining weight. I am not eating badly. I am not even eating too much (anymore). Here I sit ... nowhere near where I thought I would be. I am holding on to the hope that once this breastfeeding is over, all of my exercising will kick in to high gear and WHAMMO! I will lose 15 to 20 pounds instantly! Okay, so it's probably a pipe dream, but I have to hold on to something to keep myself running 3 miles a day AND doing my Jillian Michaels video. I just want a cookie.

Focus

Well, I feel that the time is now ... I need to focus. I have spent the past two months building muscle and endurance, and it's time to burn the fat. I hope by the time I go home to KC in two months that I am physically in a better place. I don't think I have been very focused this week--like I deserved some time off after the race or something, but I don't. It's time to focus. It's time to get serious again. It's time to kick butt--mine.

Stats for May 8 (as done on May 10)

Well, I didn't lose what I thought I would ... for working out twice a day for 5 days a week for a month, you would think I would weigh a lot less. Not yet. :( But on the plus side, I did lose weight and I did lose inches. Let's take a look:

April weight ... 184.5 May weight: 183 ... Pounds Lost: 1.5
June 8 goal weight: 179
measurements:
April hips-47 in. May hips: 42.5 ... Inches Lost: 4.5 inches
April bust-43 in. May bust: 41.5 in. ... Inches Lost: 1.5 inches
April underbust-37 in. May underbust: 37 in. ... Inches Lost: 0 inches
April waist-34 in. May waist: 34 in. ... Inches Lost: 0 inches
April thighs-29 in. May thighs: 26 in. ... Inches Lost: 3 (x2) inches
April biceps-13 in. May biceps: 12 in. ... Inches Lost: 1 (x2) inches
TOTAL INCHES LOST=14 inches
measurements goal: smaller

Not quite the goal I set or thought I would attain. I guess I felt like it was going much better ... but all of this is so much better than gaining, so I guess it's a win overall. I did lose several inches which is very, very good. Next month, I'd like to see a lot more weight lost and some more inches ... I don't know if I will lose much around the bust area until I stop breast feeding, but we'll see! :) Until next month ... here's to exercising, eating right, and pushing myself.

Gooooooooaaaaaaaaal!

This morning I reached my running goal that I set in February. I ran a 5K for a race ... I have run that same 5K 3 times in the past week, but this morning ... it was the hardest thing to do! I couldn't believe how difficult it was for me. Remember how I have said that 90% of running is mental and 10% is physical ... well, I think today proved it for me. I have never run this course before, so I had no idea what was coming up, what signs to look for, or where to imagine the finish line would be. So, as I'm running between miles 1 and 2, I'm thinking to myself, "how am I ever going to finish this race running!?!" I had no idea where to put my mind or my thoughts, so I ended up focusing on how hard it was and how terrible I was feeling. I had no idea what to look forward to or when I was able to stop ... so I pushed my way through it and FINISHED!!!! Running. 35 minutes to do 3.2 miles. Plus, it was super humid and really hot this morning, but I did it. I felt pretty good once it was over, and I'm happy to say that I met my running goal. Now, tomorrow will bring my weight and measurements goal ... I had some celebratory ice cream tonight and was about to go for another helping when I remembered that a second bowl of ice cream is not anywhere near my weight and measurements goal ... so I opted out and instead, drank some water. I'm sure that fulfilled my cravings. Well, at least I can mentally get myself out of this one ... I must meet my weight and measurement goals set for next April, and if I don't stick to it ... I won't stay on track, and I won't meet my goals ... any of them. So, goodbye ice cream ... until my next celebration. :)

3.2 REACHED!!!

So ... on Friday, I finally reached my running goal set for May 8. I ran 3.2 miles! :) It felt so good being able to do that since I haven't done anything like that since being pregnant and having Colton. I ran throughout my first trimester, and I probably ran about 3 miles a day ... but since then ... nothing. So, I feel good that it only took me 2 months to get back to 3.2 miles. My 5K is next Sabbath morning, so I am ready! I will try to run 3.2 miles at least twice this week. I will probably do 2.2 or so the other two days and then rest on Friday, so I can be refreshed for Sabbath morning. I hope I meet some of my weight loss goals, as I weigh and measure on Friday! I'm scared and nervous. I feel like I have more endurance, and I've been working out diligently ... but you just never know. Especially if I've gained muscle ... the scale can't differentiate between loss of fat and gain of muscle--all I will see is no weight loss or little weight loss. I really hope it shows some weight loss, and I especially hope to see some inches lost. Yikes! Doom day is coming. This weekend, Colton turned 5 months old! I am so proud of him. He's rolling like a King ... well, at least from back to front, and he is lifting his body onto his hands. He's getting so big!

Well, we'll see how this week goes. On a good note since my last blog ... I am wearing some old shorts from BC (before Colton), and that feels GREAT! :)